Thursday, October 25, 2007

HNT - 10.25.07

Well, I have been super busy, both at work and socially - which I guess is a good thing - so I didn't have any time this week to be creative. So, I did what any other lazy person would do, and I am recycling an HNT shot from last year. Regardless, I hope you enjoy!!
Happy HNT Everyone!!
Much Love, As Always - Jinsane

Wednesday, October 24, 2007

Confused Yet? So Am I!

Last Friday night, my boyfriend and I got into another little argument about the future of things. He made a comment about “feeling married” and not liking it, that I deserved to have a family and the things I want, but that he doesn’t want those things. So, I decided the best thing to do was to break up. He told me it was the beer talking, and that he didn’t want to hear it. So, I told him to ask me again in the morning.

The morning came and I got up to get me some breakfast….after asking him if he wanted anything. He asked me if I was breaking up with him and I said, “Yes”. I told him I remembered every word of what I said….and, more importantly, every word that he had said. I told him that even that I know I’m screwing myself, because I will definitely lose my house, I can’t put anymore of my heart and soul out there for someone who doesn’t want it. Then, I left to get our breakfast.

Afternoon rolled around and I asked him where he was going to watch the Kentucky game, and he said, “Don’t you want to watch it with me?” Long story short….we ended up going out and watching the game. We went to two different bars, before deciding we would really rather just be at home, watching it together. We have so much fun, just the two of us.

Can you understand my confusion here?

Sunday morning came and he asked if I wanted to grill out some steaks and just relax. I said, “Of course”. Well, we ended up going to a friend of ours, who was having a cookout, and had a really great day. After the food was done, he said, “Baby…will you make me a plate to take home?” And I said, “No….you are making me feel like I’m married…make your own plate.” Sorry….but I had to get that little dig in there. They are the only things that keep me sane. Of course, I then went and made his plate.

It’s like being a couple is only convenient when he wants it to be. And it confuses the living shit out of me.

Monday night, we took an hour drive to meet his boss, who was en route to Ohio. We stopped at a restaurant to eat some dinner and kill some time while we were waiting on him. As soon as we sat down, we noticed this big commotion at the table behind us. It was a large party of bikers, who were celebrating a woman’s birthday. All of the sudden the waitress comes around carrying this balloon. I could see the look on the woman’s face, like “Oh great….a balloon.” What she didn’t notice at first was the engagement ring tied to the string. When her boyfriend (now finance) pointed it out to her, she immediately started bawling, and I admit, I teared up too! I just thought that was the sweetest little sentiment…..especially for some rough neck biker. Of course, the first words out of MY man’s mouth were, “He has no idea what he just got himself into!” Just like another knife in the heart.

I feel like I’m back with my ex-husband. It took me EIGHT years to win his heart. I’m just getting too old to think about fighting for another decade to settle down with someone I love.

I know you all probably think I’m a lunatic. And, like I’ve said a thousand times, we are the only ones in the relationship, and it’s impossible for me to point out all the things that make me want to stay. Some days, I just want to take things a day at a time, and not rush him or myself into any decisions. I guess because the point where he is going to start house-hunting is fast approaching, and it terrifies me. I feel like as soon as he moves out, this relationship will be doomed. Of course, he doesn’t see it that way, but then again, he’s the one making the decisions, not me. I guess I just yearn for the time when I’m with someone who wants to make decisions TOGETHER. Isn’t that what being a couple, especially one that lives together, means?

Do I just want too much? Do I want something that just isn’t out there? Or, did I fall for someone who “just isn’t that into me”? I guess only time will tell.

Friday, October 19, 2007

What the Hell??

So, he walks in and says, “I brought you some chicken wings”. Instead of punching him in the face, like I felt like doing, I just went to bed.

I am not the kind of girl who blows up a guy’s phone. I may sit home and worry about where he is….not in a psychotic kind of way, but in a caring way. If he is 10, 20, 45 minutes late, I don’t ask him 100 questions about where he’s been. But when he is almost six hours late getting home, with no phone call, no reply to the ONE text message I sent just making sure he was OK, especially when we had massive storms last night….that’s just plain insensitive. I’m not trying to put him on a leash. It’s just RESPECT for your partner. You know what I mean?

And, all of this on top of my ex-husband (you all remember the one!) stopping by the house out of the blue last night. How weird is that? He said he was in the neighborhood, and thought he’d see how I was doing. I must say, it did knock me for a loop. It was awkward, but also extremely familiar. I guess when you are with someone for almost 14 years, that’s the way it goes. It was just your basic chit-chat….but we did clear a few things up. I was almost sad when he left, but it wasn’t a feeling like I was sad we weren’t together. I think I was just sad at the loss of a great friendship. Who knows? Maybe we can actually be friends again. When he told me about the few girls he has dated, I didn’t feel one ounce of jealousy or any other crazy feelings like that….and that felt good too. Of course, I’m in love with someone else now, so I guess that makes sense.

It was just a weird night, with lots of weird emotions. But, what else is new?

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

HNT - Wildcat Edition

L-S-WHO?? My beloved Cats beating the #1 team in the nation last weekend, was exactly what my spirit needed. Don't be a's been 43 years since Kentucky has beat a #1 team!! Let us have our little moment in the sun. I am definitely worried about playing Florida on Saturday, but right now I'm just taking a few days to bask in the glory.
There are two things that should be in a TRUE Kentucky Girl's TOP 5 of Life:

That is Jesus and the Kentucky Wildcats. I hope that this picture captured that!!

Kentucky women appreciate their natural assets: Clean skin; A winning smile; and that unforgettable Southern drawl.
Kentucky women have a distinct way with fond expressions : "Y'all come back!" "Well, bless your little heart!" "Drop by when you can" and "How's your Momma?"
Kentucky women know everybody's first name: Honey, Darlin', Baby
Kentucky women know the 3 deadly sins: Having bad hair and nails, Having bad manners, and Cooking bad food
Only a Southerner knows the difference between a hissie fit and a conniption fit, and that you don't "HAVE" them, you "PITCH" them.
Only a Southerner can show or point you to the general direction of "yonder."
Only a Southerner knows instinctively that the best gesture of solace for a neighbor whose got trouble is a plate of hot fried chicken and a big bowl of cold potato salad. If the neighbor's trouble is a real crisis, they also know to add a large derby pie!
They also know that "just down the road" can be one mile or twenty. Only a Southerner both knows and understands the difference between a redneck, a good ol' boy, and po' white trash.
In the South, y'all is singular, and y'all is plural.
A Southerner knows that "fixin" can be used as a noun, a verb, or an adverb.
Only Southerners make friends while standing in lines, ... and when we're "in line" we talk to everybody!
And for those who are not from the South, but have lived here for a long time, all y'all need is a sign to hang on y'alls front porch that reads "I ain't from the South, but I got here as fast as I could."
Happy HNT Everyone, from your favorite Kentucky girl!!
Much Love As Always - Jen-Wildcat-Sane

Happy Day Before Thursday!!

Monday, October 15, 2007

Miracle in the Bluegrass


Thursday, October 04, 2007

HNT 10.04.07

Well, since I have missed a couple of HNT's over the last few months. Namely, Labor Day - which you know is important to me - my beloved Wildcats victory over the Cardinals (F*CKIN AWESOME!!) and, of course, the NFL season kickoff!! So, in honor of my Chiefs (yeah, I know - they suck so far - but I am NOT a fair weather fan!!), I bring you my first NFL Edition of the year. I decided to get a little quirky with it, because I was just in the mood. And, I LOVE LOVE LOVE how it turned out!! (You gotta love natural tan lines - yummy!!)

BTW: Not sure why it turned out so small, but you can click on the picture to get the full effect!! LMAO

Hope you enjoy!!! GO CHIEFS!!!

Hope you all have a great day!!!

Much Love, As Always - ~Jin-Chiefs Fan-Sane~ XO

P.S. In belated honor of Labor Day - "LiUNA - Feel the Power"

Wednesday, October 03, 2007

Checking In.....Again

Sorry I've been MIA for the last couple of weeks. I've had so much going on with the new job and everything. I have to admit that I was definitely having second thoughts after my first week, but things are looking up.
My man has only been home for three days in the last six weeks because of traveling for work, so I am extremely lonely. It takes a lot of getting used to.
My sister, bro-in-law and the babies are coming in for a quick visit this weekend, so I'm really excited about that!!!
I hope that everyone is doing well!!
Tune in tomorrow....I've got a fun HNT in mind.
XO - Jinsane