Jesus & Bartenders Hear Everything!

This is Leslie. She is just like my second mom. She is the bartender at the famous Tam's. I have never met anyone in my life as sweet as she is. God love her!

20 Random Things

1. No one will ever be as hard on me as I am on myself.
2. I feel guilty about everything.
3. I can't stand dumb-ass people.
4. I hate the fact that panhandlers on the street probably make more money than I do.
5. One of the things I love most is the wind in my face.
6. My sister used to sleep with me when she was younger, and I still miss that to this day.
7. I love my parents, but will always feel like I'm letting them down.
8. My family isn't as close as we used to be, and that really makes me sad.
9. I'm scared of making mistakes in my life...I feel like that's all I've ever done.
10. I've started listening to country music 24/7 and I have no idea why.
11. I freak out that my life is already half over.
12. I love a crisp fall morning.
13. I want a child really bad....married or not....sounds like another mistake, doesn't it??
14. I have a weirdo obsession with pig figurines.....I'll never understand it.
15. I can wear a smile on my face and be funny and outgoing, even when I'm dying inside.
16. I believe in the supernatural.
17. I really want to have my fortune read.....I'm running out of options.
18. I can't stand counselors....they always jump to conclusions and are hardly ever right.
19. I hate taking pills of any kind.
20. I love to chew gum while I'm drinking beer.

What the F**K? Part I

I can't stand it anymore. How can I only be 32 years old and already regret about half of my life? Some days, I can just go along and smile and act like my life is great and other days, it just hits me like a ton of bricks! I'm nowhere near where I should be right now.....I'm nothing close to what I envisioned myself as being....I don't really have a lot to proud of.....I don't have SHIT. I know I should quit feeling sorry for myself. There are so many people out there who don't have half of what I have....but you know what? Today I'm throwing a pity party for myself, so shut the fuck up!

Gorgeous Baby!!! You Should See The Rest of Us! LOL

 

Long Time - No Post

Wow.....what a summer! I've been so busy I haven't had one moment to write. I have so much to get off my chest, but never seem to have enough time to write. Since I posted last, I've been to Mexico, been in a car wreck, made up and broke up with my husband about eight times, been cheated on, spit on, and a number of other things....that nobody would believe. I'm still in such turmoil about where my life is going that I don't know what to do. I guess I'm scared of the unknown and scared of regretting my decisions. It's not like I've never done that before. LOL. I wish I could write some more, but I'm really busy at work and too broke to get my computer running at home. Hope you guys didn't miss my rants too much! LMAO.