Half-Nekkid Thursday - State of Mind Edition

My state of mind differs with every second.

One minute I truly believe that everything is going to be OK.

Five seconds later, I feel overwhelmed with despair.

One minute I truly believe my luck is going to change.

Five seconds later, reality sets in and I realize that I'm just not a lucky person.

One minute I truly believe that I'm cared for and have a "few" good friends.

Five seconds later, I realize that I really am all alone in this world.

One minute I truly feel like giving up.

Five seconds later, my heart & pride take over and I realize that giving up is not an option!!

Today is a new day!!!!

Happy HNT Everyone!!!

XO - Jin~notgivinup~sane

Happy Day-Before-Thursday

TMI Tuesday - Part 15

1. If you were to face the Wizard of Oz, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart?

If I had to choose out of the three, I guess it would be more courage. It's impossible for me to have any more heart than I already do. I know I'm smart - so I guess courage would be what I would want more of.

2. Have you ever gone to court for anything? What for?

Not for me personally, but since I work in the legal field, I can honestly say I've been to Court plenty of times.

3. What was the last thing you did that you previously told yourself you wouldn't do?

Fall in love again.

4. Did you ever have a summer fling while on vacation?

No.

5. Have you ever done anything sexual with someone who's name you never knew?

No.

Bonus (as in optional): What is the best way to mend a broken heart?

Find love again, I suppose. I'm still trying to figure that one out!!

TGIF

Half-Nekkid Thursday - FTW Edition

OK.....This will not be a happy, mushy, sappy post....full of my hopes, feelings, and dreams. This is a post that pretty much sums up my feelings as of late.

FUCK the system that denies me from having health insurance.

FUCK this shithole place that I work - for less money than I deserve.

FUCK the mortgage company who is raping me on this high interest loan.

FUCK the credit card companies who are continually trying to add bullshit fees to my account.

FUCK the collection companies that call my phone every fuckin five minutes.

FUCK the groomer who just ruined my poor dog's fur.

FUCK the Kia Dealership, who not only didn't fix my car, but lost my keys in the process.

FUCK the government.

FUCK the bank who won't give me a loan to get back on my feet.

FUCK my air conditioning unit that leaks freon, and costs me an arm and leg.

FUCK the people who are lying to me right now - and I know who they are.

FUCK the people who take me for granted.

FUCK the people who treat me like shit.

FUCK divorce.

FUCK all the reasons why I'm on the verge of bankruptcy & foreclosure.

I was thinking of having a Fundraiser - where I ask all of my readers to mail me a dollar - and have a few of their friends mail me a dollar - and their friends mail me a dollar - ANYTHING to get me out of this hole I'm in.....but then I decided....FUCK IT!!!!

FUCK IT ALL!!

Happy HNT!!

XO - Jin-FTW-sane

Happy Hump Day!!

Soul Searchin.....

You can spend your whole life buildin'

Something from nothin'

One storm could come and blow it all away

BUILD IT ANYWAY

You could chase a dream

That seems so out of reach

And you know it might not ever come your way

DREAM IT ANYWAY

God is great, but sometimes life aint good

And when I pray it doesn't always turn out like I think it should

But I do it anyway

I DO IT ANYWAY

This whole worlds gone crazy

And it's hard to believe

That tomorrow will be better than today

BELIEVE IT ANYWAY

You can love someone with all you heart

For all the right reasons

And in a momemt they can choose to walk away

LOVE EM' ANYWAY

You can pour your soul out singin'

A song you believe in

That tomorrow they'll forget you ever sang

SING IT ANYWAY

I SING

I DREAM

I LOVE........ANYWAY

(and it hurts like hell.......)

Half-Nekkid Thursday - Blue Collar Edition #4

Well, guys......

I've been going through some more dramas lately....nothing really worth posting, unless you want to hear about my near-death experience with a semi going 85 m.p.h. on Monday and....oh yeah....getting my front tooth cracked at work on Tuesday......

But, all of that aside, I wanted to give another shout-out to the hard working laborers of the world.

The men and women who break their backs every day so that we can have safe roads and beautiful buildings......

Here's to You!!

By the way....if anyone needs anything hammered or nailed....just give me a shout!!! I could use the extra money!! ;o)

HHNT Everyone!!!

XO - Tool Belt Diva

Bella Boo's First Birthday.....

For those of you who have been around for awhile, you have to remember the new addition born into the family last year.....right in the middle of my divorce and other dramas....

I still can't believe it's already been a year.

My sister, brother-in-law and my nieces are up in New York at Ft. Drum, and she emailed me pictures from the "celebration". My parents and I sure hated missing her first birthday.

Bella's "big" present was getting to eat her first ever Happy Meal!! Whoo Hoo!!

I'm sure there will be many more to come!!! ;o)

I love the look that Bella is giving Melly!!

How can anyone resist that face???

Or this one????

My sister, Bella, and one of the gifts I sent!! Emmy says that the book is Bella's new chew toy!!

Obligatory Cake/Face Picture...What a Great Daddy!!!

Just thought I'd share a picture update of the fam.

Hope everyone has a great day!!

XO - Jen

Half-Nekkid Thursday - Just Jen Edition

I was able to get my hands on a working camera yesterday, so I get to actively participate in HNT this week. I'm so excited about that!!

I decided to name this week's edition "Just Jen" because I think that's what these pictures represent. Just lil ole' me - nothing spectacular - no special poses - just me in my room snapping pictures. Hope you like them. I had a blast doing it!

Unlike my Pink Taco edition, there are no sexual overtones to the Pink Pony Pub - it's just one of my souvenirs from my vacation. This bar is a really kick-ass place. Plus, I look good in the shirt!! LMAO

I started cracking up after I saw this one. Sometimes my boobs DO get in the way!!!

Which is why I had to change angles - and why I was laughing in this picture!! ;o)

I know I'm a good person - and I have so much love in my heart. I want to find that special person who wants to be MY partner in this crazy ass world we live in. Someone who will throw caution to the wind like I do, and just run with what their heart says!! Life is too short to second guess your feelings. That's why I have always lived my life the way I have. I may have regretted some of my actions, but at least I know I have always been true to my heart.

It's hard for a person with a free spirit and loving soul to watch the way things unfold in this world. To watch people withhold their true feelings to avoid getting hurt. It gets harder and harder for me to believe in the magic of true love. To believe that people do want to find that someone who completes them - that someone who makes them want to be a better person - that someone who will be your partner in life - no matter what comes at you. Someone you can count on - someone you know won't run at the first sign of trouble. Does that even exist anymore? I sure hope it does - because that is really all I want or need in this world.

Give people more than they expect, and do it with grace and sincerity.

Marry the person you love to talk to. As you get older that will be as important as anything else.

Don't believe everything you hear or read, spend all you have or sleep all you want.

When you say, "I LOVE YOU", mean it.

When you apologize to someone - look them in the eye.

Believe in love at first sight.

Never laugh at someone's dream. People who don't dream - don't have much.

Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt, but it's the only way to live life completely.

When you have a disagreement, fight fair.

Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

Remember the three "R's" - Respect for self, Respect for others, Responsibility for your actions.

Don't let a little dispute ruin a great friendship.

When you make a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

Oh yeah, and last but not least.....try to fall for someone with a great ass....

HHNT Everyone!!

XO - ~Justjen~

Happy Hump Day!

TMI Tuesday - Part 14

1. Should guys wear pink?

There are some guys who can really pull this color off, and when they do, I think it's pretty hot!

2. Do you kiss with your eyes open or closed?

99.9% of the time it's with my eyes closed!!

3. What is the first "non-physical" feature you tend to notice about a person you find attractive?

Their sense of humor. I also like to watch how they handle a stressful situation. I think that says alot about a person.

4. Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?

Of course!! And, I hope to do so again very soon!!

5. Would you rather receive amazing oral sex or have amazing sex?

Really, any kind of amazing sex is wonderful!! That's a hard question, but I think I'll go with amazing sex.

Bonus (as in optional): If you could say anything you wanted anonymously to anyone, without identifying that person, what would you say?

I actually have several things I want to say!! The first would be that I wish you would have tried harder for me. I wish you would have remembered everything I had done for you and how many times I had been there for you before you threw me away like an old newspaper.

The second thing I want to say is that I hope you realize how lucky you are to have someone who would do anything in the world for you. How lucky you are that I don't let past relationships hinder my ability to love again. Because I will always love someone new just like it was the first time.

XO - Jen