Saturday, May 15, 2010

Is This Really MY Life?

It just dawned on me last night that I have a life full of regrets. I have no idea what to do about it or where to go from here. I'm only 37 years old, but I'm at that point in my life where I'm starting to panic because NOTHING is the way I want it to be. Am I going to grow old alone? Am I going to regret the fact that I never had a child? I don't want to live my life this way, but I can't control my thoughts or my feelings. I'm sad and I literally just realized that I don't know if I've ever been truly happy. I'm good at holding everything inside and putting a smile on my face, but I'm tired. I just don't know where to go from here.

15 Comments:

Blogger Osbasso Opined...

I think there's a difference between a life of regrets, and a life yet unfulfilled. I'm very much like you, but I've accepted the regrets as part of the past, which I can't change. But many of which have led me to where I am today.

If you want things to be different, you should look at each day as a day that you can do something to improve it, and not waste it away.

Then again, if you weren't looking for advice, but rather just a place to vent, then nevermind... ;-)

Certainly nice to see your presence here though!

May 15, 2010 3:42 PM  
Blogger 13messages Opined...

I feel your pain and I agree with Os. I hope thongs turn around for you soon. You're pretty great.

May 15, 2010 4:38 PM  
Blogger 13messages Opined...

Darnit. You know I meant to type "things," right?

May 15, 2010 5:00 PM  
Blogger Wiwille Opined...

It's better to regret something you have done than regret something you haven't done.

May 16, 2010 1:40 PM  
Blogger Pyrhonik Opined...

Change happens with a plan.

May 24, 2010 2:34 AM  
Blogger rob Opined...

Osbasso is right, as are other posters; I'd tell you I know what what it's like to feel like you do, only add 10 years!! It dawned on me, we haven't yet found our audiences, respectfully. their really are people, who like us, people we're better suited to be with, but we settle. I don't know why, but we do.

Regarding the title of your blog, I've been asking myself the same question for 8 years, of a 21 year marriage. I call that doing "hard time".

June 27, 2010 7:50 PM  
Blogger Jericho Opined...

We're about the same age and are feeling about the same way. Let's both turn it around!
(Oh, write more, and I will, too.)

July 08, 2010 9:33 PM  
Blogger Snaggle Tooth Opined...

Hey Jen, checking to see if your blog's still here!

You're too young to give up- I feel like that sometimes too, n I'm way older- The economy isin't our fault!

Remember to appreciate what you've already had, n got!

Hope things are going better for you by now!

December 01, 2010 4:04 AM  
Blogger SquirmY Opined...

Hey Jen......I think I am going to give this blog thing another shot. I see you have not posted in a long time and thought I would see if you were ever planning to come back too. Anyway, I hope things are better for you - I hope things are great for you!! :)

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