Thursday, March 31, 2005

Fucked Up Thursday

So....I said that I was worried whether or not I would have a job on Thursday. Well.....I don't. And on top of that, we lost our v-ball tournament. The whole thing that fucks me up about getting fired is that SCW (or should I say dickhead), my boss, didn't even hang around to tell me to my face. DLM (or should I say chicken shit), my other boss, didn't hang around either. He left me a fuckin' note. FS (or should I say BITCH), our office manager, waited until the end of the day to tell me......and then gave me some bullshit excuse. It's pissing me off just writing about Out!

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Ash Wednesday

So....last night was a chaotic mess! BW and I got into a fight over the dumbest shit. We both ended up crying and I think we were both freaked out over the fact that we were arguing in the first place. Especially considering what it was over. JG is the biggest asshole I think I've ever met. I should have squashed this whole thing when it happened...but I was trying to be the bigger person and just walk away. I overslept this morning and had to call into work, which is the worst thing I could have done. (Especially since I'm on "probation".) Hopefully, I'll still have a job tomorrow.
My volleyball tournament is tonight and I don't feel like playing. I just want to lay in bed and watch TV....and stay the fuck out of the bar for once. Yeah....good luck with that one. I could (and should) go on a Makers Mark strike. I'll keep you informed as to how that goes. Maybe I could just start drinking water and/or coke when I go out. I wonder how different everyone would seem to me if I was sober at the bar? Maybe it would be so bad that I would never want to go in there again. I would really hate it, but maybe I need to before I'm in way too deep to get out. Sometimes I feel that I already am. And that scares me. I've always had control over what I'm what in the hell is happening to me now? Sometimes I feel like a completely and totally different person. Maybe that's why my husband is divorcing me....and maybe that's why I don't really care. Normally I would be a total mess right now, but I'm actually holding up really, really well.
Well....that's enough bitchin' for one day. I guess I'll go play some volleyball. Wish me luck!
JenJen Out!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

PlayDog March Centerfold

I Couldn't Pass This Up Posted by Hello

Mel-Mel...My Angel

My Gorgeous Niece Posted by Hello

Any Given Tuesday

Good Morning Campers! What a beautiful day. I would have to say that last night was one of the most awesome nights of my life. I'm in such a good mood today that I think most of the people I work with think I'm nuts. They think it's way too early in the morning to be so perky. I don't care what time it is....I just want to go home and do it all over again. ;o)

I almost feel guilty for being so happy when my marriage is falling apart. If I didn't have my friends in my life, I wouldn't make it through this. All I can do is look forward to the future.

JenJen Out!

Monday, March 28, 2005

Suck Ass Rainy Monday Cats lost last night, which was the end to a wild-ass NCAA weekend. I really am hoping that the Cards go all the way. I must be insane. I had to meet with hubby on Saturday and go over divorce papers. It went pretty well, considering. Went to TT's Saturday night. It was crazy, as usual, but fun. I feel like total crap today. The weather doesn't help either.

JenJen Out!

Friday, March 25, 2005

Bull Shit....Bull Shit....Bull Shit!!

So....I just got back from my counseling session with my soon-to-be ex...God I'm pissed. I still can't believe we are getting a divorce. It's just happening so fast. I think I'm still in shock about the whole thing. He was my entire world for 12 years and up until about two and a half months ago...I thought we would grow old together. Now....when I'm with's like I'm with a stranger. I don't know what in the hell happened. Hence, the title......Mind Blowing Insanity.

JenJen Out!

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Mama's 1st Baby Girl

Say Cheese!

Just Smile! Posted by Hello

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Mama's New Baby

Monday, March 14, 2005


So...I have finally made it back to the Internet. I decided that since I am going through a mid-mid life crisis that I would start another blog and pour my little heart out to a computer monitor. It should be interesting. Quick recap: My husband just asked for a divorce after 12 years together. It's all over my friend Bryan......who just really cares about me. I just want everything to work out. I just want to be happy. Is that so much to ask????

JenJen Out!

Thursday, March 03, 2005

Wednesday, March 02, 2005