Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Jury Duty.....

Well, I started jury duty Monday. It's been one long ass three days so far. Nothing to do, but sit and wait....and of course, play on the internet. It's kinda like being at work!!! LMAO
Anyhoo, not alot to say today - just wanted to let everyone know I'm still breathing, still trying to keep my chin up, and my head above water.
Love You All - Jinsane - XO

Thursday, January 24, 2008

HNT 01.24.08

Well here it is again…..already Thursday. My thoughts are so complex and convoluted that I can’t even put them into words. I’m just so exhausted from the stress of the last few years, that I feel like I’ve aged at twice the rate I should have. There are so many things I want to say, so many thoughts I want to share – but some of the things that have happened to me are just too much for me to write about….even when my emotions are at their rawest (is that even a word?).

This financial situation I’m in with my house and my twice-doubled utility bills is taking the worst toll on me – both mentally and physically. I’ve put applications in everywhere I can think of to get a second job…..and have had no response. You wouldn’t think it would be so hard to pick up something part-time, but I’m having a hell of a time. I started bartending last Friday at a little pub – (NO – not Tim Tam’s – for those of you who have been around awhile) – but the money just isn’t there. I’m at a total loss of what to do…..until I sell my house.

There are so many things I wish I could go back and do different. There are so many things right now that I wish I could change. I’m just not in a good place…..and honestly, I’m getting really sick and tired of saying that.

Enough Pissing and Moaning for now……on with my HNT!

Happy HNT Everyone!!

Much Love, As Always - Jinsane XO

Friday, January 18, 2008

General Update......

Well, a lot has been going on since my hiatus began…..and a lot has stayed the same. Unfortunately.

I do have some good news though. My brother-in-law has learned that he won’t have to be re-deployed and that they should all be home for good in May or June. I’m so excited. It will be great to have my sister and nieces home. Back in December, my brother –in-law adopted my niece, Melly (how could any of you forget her?), and now they are all one big happy family. I’m just tickled to death for her and my sister. It was a BIG DAY for the family!!

What a beautiful family!!

Does it get any better than this??

The sad news for me, is that I’m finally having to sell my house. I’ve hung on as long as I could, and I just can’t do it anymore. I’ve been so stressed out for the last couple of years (as you all know), and had so much shit going on. I’m ready for a break. I’m ready to start actually LIVING my life.

My boyfriend just got approved for his house loan, so I’m sure he’ll start looking soon, and I’ll be alone AGAIN!! Who knows what’s going to happen in the future. I just wish it would happen….so I know where I stand. I have a feeling it’s not going to be where I want.

I hope you all had a wonderful holiday season….and a great start to your 2008. It’s good to be back. I’ve missed hearing from everyone!!
Much Love, As Always - Jinsane - XO

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

HNT 01.17.08

I got miles of trouble spreadin' far and wide
Bills on the table gettin' higher and higher
They just keep on comin', there ain't no end in sight
I'm just holding on tight...

I've got someone who loves me more then words can say
And I'm thankful for that each and every day
And if I count all my blessings, I get a smile on my face
Still it's hard to find faith..

But if you can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me believe

Its just day to day tryin' to make ends meet
What I'd give for an address out on Easy Street
I need a deep margarita to help me unwind
Leave my troubles behind...

But if you can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me believe

I used to believe in us
When times got tough
But lately I'm afraid that even love is not enough

But if you can can look in my eyes
And tell me we'll be alright
If you promise never to leave
You just might make me
Oh, you just might make me
You just might make me believe