What the F**K? Part I

I can't stand it anymore. How can I only be 32 years old and already regret about half of my life? Some days, I can just go along and smile and act like my life is great and other days, it just hits me like a ton of bricks! I'm nowhere near where I should be right now.....I'm nothing close to what I envisioned myself as being....I don't really have a lot to proud of.....I don't have SHIT. I know I should quit feeling sorry for myself. There are so many people out there who don't have half of what I have....but you know what? Today I'm throwing a pity party for myself, so shut the fuck up!