Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Blind-Sided Again

Well, the thin veil of my short-lived "happiness" was pierced last night by more bad news. After months of going back and forth, my cousin finally had the balls to tell me that he is not going to move in with me (and essentially save me from losing my house). I have nothing but love for him, but I wish he would have just told me a long time ago. Now, I have to start trying to figure out AGAIN how to keep my home. On top of that, hubby called last night (in a MAJOR mood) and decided to punish me for whatever in the hell was wrong with him. He and I had been getting along so well lately, and I have no idea where that came from.

It just never stops.
So, here I go again. Remember folks, my benevolent employer just screwed me over my raise.....right before I have to try and get financing to "buy" my house. Do I keep the house, sell the house......how do I live in an apartment with two BIG dogs? Do I just get a second job? Put an ad in the paper? Shoot myself?
I don't ask for much of anything out of this life - just to be loved and to be happy. Do the good people in this world always finish last?
FUCK!

12 Comments:

Blogger Scott Opined...

Sorry to hear all of this. I hope that you can find a roomate. Just start spreading the word to friends and family and hopefully something will come out of the woodwork. Keep the chin up as best you can.

Scott

July 26, 2006 11:54 AM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Scott: Thanks. I've been keeping my chin up for quite a while, what's a little longer? ;o)

July 26, 2006 12:08 PM  
Blogger Wiwille Opined...

When it rains...

As my mother used to tell me "life can hand you a bowl of shit, but you don't have to eat it." Actually mom didn't tell me that. I think I just made that up. Never mind.

Seriously it could always be worse, and you do have options; however tough they may be. Just keep confidence in yourself and you'll be okay.

July 26, 2006 12:24 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

WW: I know that I have options. I just want to have at least TWO weeks go by without some new crisis arising. Is that really so much to ask for?

July 26, 2006 12:31 PM  
Blogger Kelso Opined...

Remember your mantra!

I like that song, too, since I seem to be able to relate to it as well. You're right, it doesn't hurt that your hero is cute!

July 26, 2006 1:26 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Kelso: Doesn't hurt a bit! ;o)

July 26, 2006 1:36 PM  
Blogger TwistedPain Opined...

This is how things come... we both unfortunately know that. I wish you all the best in your situation and wish there was something I can do to help. I'd come move in with ya but then we'd both lose our jobs because we'd always be up all night.... uh playing cards and then we'd not be able to afford it anyways.

Gotta think of a different plan.

-YourTwistedSoulmate

July 26, 2006 1:36 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Twisty: Playing cards? Yeah, right!

July 26, 2006 1:40 PM  
Blogger Professor Fate Opined...

Happiness is happiness. Enjoy it while you have it.

But since you don't, I will comment on the obvious (well obvious because I don't know all the facts and I am standing back a little).

*Don't even joke about suicide, blogs don't convey tone well and we may not think it is a joke. If we don't think it is a joke we may worry.

*Don't let him and his moods control you. I know it is easier for me to say than for you to do (just as you saying don't let me ex-wife control my moods is easier for you to say than me to do). He gave up the right to shit on you when he left. Don't give it back to him (again easy for me to say)

*What is to become of the house after the divorce? Would you owe him equity (cash)? Is it all yours (for the mortgage)? Is his name still on the mortgage? Basically, might it need to be sold to meet some requirements of the settlement?

*Can you afford it? If you cannot, you may want to get out sooner with your credit in tact instead of later when you cannot get a mortgage to get another house.

*Second job is an option but they usually don't pay enough to be worth the hassles. I don't know what the 'ville has to offer, but it is an option.

* A roommate, a reliable roommate is another option.

* You may have to take a hit and start again. It sounds terrible and it sounds like a huge step back, but it may be the best long term answer.

I can talk forever. Email me if you want to have this conversation in a more private environment.

Best of luck and remember not making a decision is making a decision.

July 26, 2006 1:47 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Prof: First of all, don't worry...I meant that as a joke in a time of utter frustration. I know that it's not funny subject matter, but - again - I was just venting.

I will send you an email later tonight.

July 26, 2006 4:57 PM  
Blogger eddie Opined...

sounds like bad day, take a deep breath,tell the ex, to f--k off,find a room mate, and smile no matter how much it hurts, the only reason i can find we are here is to find happness,hope tomorrow is better,and keep the dogs,they love you no matter what you do...

July 26, 2006 10:18 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Eddie: I know I'll be OK, I'm just tired of always having to fight for everything. I guess that's just my lot in life.

BTW: I'd NEVER give up my babies (dogs).

July 27, 2006 12:08 PM  

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