Tuesday, November 29, 2005

A Break In the Saga

Ok - I'm officially depressed!

With the events surrounding last weekend and my subsequent admittance (albeit, brief) into the psych ward last Tuesday, I'm having a hard time with the next Chapter of my Saga.

How can I possibly write an accurate account of my relationship with my hubby, when he has managed to make me feel like a worthless piece of shit? Can somebody help me out with that one?

However, I refuse to just lie down and not finish it. I'm sorry it's taken so long to post the next installment, but I'm just not in a good place for it right now. I hope you all bear with me....that is, if anyone even cares about it.


Blogger Neo Opined...

Jen -Hey now, turn that frown upside down!

There's no crying in blogworld!

We understand what you're going through, so you take your time, and make sure you write on your terms.


November 29, 2005 11:49 AM  
Blogger xfilipponex Opined...

aw boo :( I know it's hard to just leave such a long relationship but I honestly believe you're better off without him. It's self destructive to be around him almost. As your sister though I love and support you always. Cheer up, I'll be home in 23 days! <3

November 29, 2005 11:52 AM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Neo: I'm not crying, dammit!

Believe me, I always do things on my own terms. ;o)

XFX: Thanks Sis. It was so nice to have you home. Can't wait til' you're back!

November 29, 2005 11:56 AM  
Blogger CandyGirl Opined...

Marriage and relationships... like all my friends most of those i knew from high school are getting married next year (which is like so soon) I am gonna die an old maid!

November 29, 2005 1:17 PM  
Blogger Neo Opined...

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November 29, 2005 2:14 PM  
Blogger Neo Opined...

Jen -Maybe you and Candy should get together and become nuns?

Neo ducks

November 29, 2005 2:14 PM  
Blogger SkyeBlue2U Opined...

Want to hear something funny? So do I . Anyway, like Neo said, take your time.

November 29, 2005 2:49 PM  
Blogger Neo Opined...

LOL -Ok, now I REALLY don't wanna know. Let me run before Jen comes and kicks my ass!

November 29, 2005 2:53 PM  
Blogger April Opined...

Just more proof that you are better off without him. My frist son's father was abusive and I couldn't leave him because he had beaten me down so low. I had non existant self esteem, and had me convinced that I'd never do any better, no one would ever want me. I was down really bad. But finally I gave up and just moved on. And over time I realized I was better than that, better without him, and a good person. Just takes time, it's totally natural. Doesn't help it's the holiday season, the time of year when everything should be peaceful and happy. (((HUGS)))

November 29, 2005 3:48 PM  
Blogger cityman05 Opined...

Hey, just wanted to let you know I didn't kick the bucket from the coffin cookies and I am definatly interested in your next chapter.
I think you are a great writer.


November 29, 2005 5:25 PM  
Blogger Snaggle Tooth Opined...

We sadly will wait as long as we gotta!
Don't feel bad, I'm makin a concerted effort to avoid all the main things gettin me down on a daily basis, in blogland acause it's tough to get out of the mood if ya gotta dwell on it all the time...
moving on is more positive...

November 29, 2005 6:07 PM  
Blogger Snaggle Tooth Opined...

Oh yeah, nuns aren't allowed to drink beer, Neo!

November 29, 2005 6:08 PM  
Blogger CitySoul Opined...

whenever you're ready, no rush...we'll be around.

November 29, 2005 10:15 PM  
Blogger Ellen Opined...

Just remember that NO GUY and NOBODY is better than you... let that be your daily mantra.
Onwards and upwards to a better life...
Your life is made to be lived to it's fullest... anybody not on the same page as you with that, never deserved to know you in the first place.
Take the time you need, but remember it's a good healer and filter for dumping the junk.

Your friends will be on your side, regardless...

November 29, 2005 11:08 PM  
Blogger JAX Opined...

Poor thing. You do this for you when you need to. You don't need the pressure and guilt of feeling like you MUST blog hanging over you too. That defeats the whole purpose of therapeutic blogging.

November 30, 2005 8:41 AM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Damn Guys! I leave for a few hours and now I'll never catch up. LOL

CandyG: Love will find you when you least expect it.

Neo: First of all, I could never be a nun...I like drinking and sex too much! LOL

Sag Sis: Thanks...but I'll try to hurry.

Neo: Watch your back, buddy! I'll get you when you least expect it.

April: I know exactly what you're saying, it's just hard to let it go.

Kippy: Thanks Buddy! Glad to see you're still with us.

Snags: I know, but this is basically my only outlet for getting it all off my chest.

City: Thanks Sweetie!

Ellen: I know. But, it's easier said than done, for me.

Jax: Thanks...I'm the one putting the pressure on myself...I do that alot. I expect WAY more from myself than others do of me. I've always been that way.

November 30, 2005 9:21 AM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

P.S. WHEW!!!!!

November 30, 2005 9:21 AM  

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