Friday, April 13, 2007

I'm Sick and Tired.....

These last two and a half years have drained me so completely, I'm not sure I'll ever recover. This financial strain is weighing so heavily on my mind and my soul, that I can't think about anything else. I only get paid twice a month. I just got paid today and I'm not even close to having enough to pay everything that is due. So, not only do I not have enough to pay what's due, I'm completely broke again until April 30th. It seems that every time I have enough to get by, something happens. I was out sick and missed some work, my car broke down....blah blah blah..........
The collection phone calls are coming every five minutes. My heart sinks every time my phone rings.
Sometimes, I wish I was shallow enough to get with some old rich man who would take care of me. But then, I remember that I'm Jen - and I don't do shit like that. It's just so fuckin hard some days to get out of bed.
I know we've all been there and done that....I just wish I could say I've "been there, done that"...instead of, "I'm still there and I'm still doing that". FUCK!!


Anonymous Anonymous Opined...

AAfter seeing some of the HNT pics, it is safe to say you would make a killing as a "dancer"

April 13, 2007 12:54 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Well thank you very much for the compliment!! Unfortunately, I don't have the self-esteem for that!! ;o(

April 13, 2007 1:53 PM  
Blogger Wiwille Opined...

You don't have the self esteem to dance, but you have no problem showing yourself off to multiple viewers online?

I say dance to the speakers that boom. I'd break out a 20, or maybe fifty three 20s.

April 13, 2007 4:57 PM  
Blogger Professor Fate Opined...

Is the "job" option from a few pots ago a way out or a way to even?

April 13, 2007 7:15 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous Opined...

Ok- tell them they can only communicate by writing. If they phone tell them, you are not prepared to speak to them- they must write to you. Then work out what you can afford, even if only £5 a month, then offer them that - in writing. No more bullying and intimidating phone calls. If they keep calling complain to the Police and anyone else, or change your number..

April 13, 2007 7:39 PM  
Blogger tkkerouac Opined...

no, it would be nice to have a rich one...
Should I do cockblog Wed?

April 13, 2007 8:06 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

WW: I'm not sure if I should be offended by your comment or not. Showing myself off to multiple viewers online for my HNT and being a stripper are two totally different things. I am not, nor will I ever be, ashamed of anything I put on my blog. Thank you very much!!

Prof: Yes - this new job may be my salvation...but it's still in the works.

Mutt: Thank you for the advice. I may just do that!!

TK: I think you should!!! ;o)

April 14, 2007 1:47 PM  
Blogger Neo Opined...

Jen - Join the club hon. The job I'm at now is only paying me on the 15th and 30th. I just had to get them to advance me a few bucks just so I can get there next week. (They wouldn't be giving the checks out until the 16th)

I'm so freaking far in the hole with rent its not even funny. And let's not even talk about all the other bills.

It just doesn't seem like you can get ahead, no matter what you do. It's like some freaking force in this this world is just holding hard working people back from being happy and enjoying life.

Living day to day will mess with your head, you have to find something to do that will take your mind off it so you can try to relax.

Unplug the phone, or go hiking with your dogs, take pictures, or write, play guitar, etc. That's the kind of stuff that I've been doing to stay semi-sain.

Well, except for the guitar part, but that's another story.

As someone once said: "Don't let the man get you down."

Peace & Hugs,

- Neo

April 14, 2007 1:52 PM  
Blogger SkyeBlue2U Opined...

Jinsane, you know you've been thru much worse, try not to let this get to you, much easier said than done, I know. Sorry I've not been around much lately. Hey, start watching for whose going be running in the Kentuckty Derby, my pick is "Street Smarts". Sag. Sister. :)

April 15, 2007 3:27 AM  
Blogger eddie Opined...

Hey dear hope you are better, stop by some times

April 15, 2007 6:29 PM  
Blogger Professor Fate Opined...

Here is to it becoming reality and it being a way out from underneath.

April 16, 2007 10:59 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous Opined...

Fight back Ms Jinsane and take on the bastards -you have your rights to you know. These scumbag companies can't bully you -it is intimidation and illegal and if it puts you in fear it is potentially assault.

April 16, 2007 1:47 PM  
Blogger Jinsane Opined...

Neo: I know...I've been a lifelong member of the "club" if you know what I mean. I know you've been going through the same's nice to know I'm not alone, even though I wouldn't wish this shit on anyone!! Love ya!!!

Sag Sis: Thanks for the pick-me-up!! I know I'll survive - I'm just tired.

Eddie: Thanks sweetie!!

Prof: Here's to it!!! ;o)

Mutt: I have been finding very creative ways to battle the bastards!!! ;o)

April 16, 2007 4:07 PM  

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