Half-Nekkid Thursday - St. Patty's Edition

Where do I start?? (Don't despair - the half-nekkidness is at the end of this post!!)

I had this huge post to submit today, but I decided to save it for next week - my two year Bloggiversary. I did, however, want to say that I'm so thankful for my e-buddies. You really keep me going, even if you don't realize it.

I've had alot of time to spend alone lately....and we all know what happens to me when I have that.....I THINK WAY TOO MUCH. Geez, how many times have I said that over the last two years?

I'm a positive person and the best friend you'll ever have. I always put others before myself. Sometimes this burns me, but I know no other way. I'm sweet to everyone, even when they don't deserve it, but can be a bitch when necessary. I generally always choose the high road, but I'm human & sometimes I let myself get drug down. Even that usually doesn't last long. I hurt alot inside, but always try to bring myself above it.

I'm always reminded of how lucky I am, so why dwell in other's misery. Join me on the high road or I'll leave you behind. That's probably why people come and go out of my life so quickly....and I feel like I'm left all alone - to start all over again and make new friends. I live my life with no regrets. Everyone who has come into my life has been there for a reason. Sometimes an example of what not to do, but I've learned from them all & I wouldn't change a thing. Yet, sometimes I'm really saddened by this.

Sometimes I'm confident and secure. I know my self-worth and I know that I'd make someone so happy. Yet, at the same time, and for some unknown reason - I guess I feel like I don't deserve to be totally happy. And, I have no reason why?? Why shouldn't I deserve all the things in life that I want??

My body is my temple & I like to decorate it with tattoos. I am a constant work in progress. Life is a journey & each day a lesson that I learn from. However, sometimes I feel that I haven't learned anything. What has always hurt me the most in this life, is that I love too much....I care too much. I'm an EXTREMELY gentle soul. So, how can you learn from the mistake of loving too much?? If I learn from being burnt by a lover or a friend, then doesn't that mean that I lose a part of myself - the part I love the most???

If there is one thing I've learned in life....it's that certain events will occur and show you who you can rely on and who your true friends are. The problem is.....I've learned that I can't really rely on anyone that I know personally. Where are they now?? Where were they when I cried myself to sleep for almost nine months straight?? How can the one person who would drive for hours to pick you up if you broke down....or who would drive 16 hours to rescue a dog....or lend you money when I didn't have it myself....sit alone when they are at their worst? Where in the fuck are you people now when I needed you most??

OK - that's enough venting for one day! I really hate bringing HNT down, so I'll quit until next week.

Without further ado - Here's this week's HNT!

I hope you all have a great week and a great St. Patrick's Day!!!

XO - Much Love, as Always - Jen